I started my new shift this week. My days start at 3:30 am, and I'm not going to lie... the transition has been TOUGH. I'm tired, crabby, anxious and nervous about doing a good job. But I am really happy about getting a promotion, because I finally feel that I am going somewhere. I don't really know yet what my DREAM job is... all I know is that I want to do something creative. When I worked as a PA I couldn't help but wonder *why* people would want to do cameras and floor directing for years..... it's fun for a while, but when you've done it for some time it kind of loses its flavor. I need to use my brain rather than my arms, if you know what I mean. I'd rather be tired mentally than tired from boredom.
Editing is fun; so far I like it a lot. I've already done producing, but it's been a little tricky trying to figure out ENPS. I miss iNEWS..... Now, don't get me wrong. It's not difficult... but I tend to get tired after 4 hours of intense training with editing. So when it's time to learn producing, it's challenging when nobody has the time to help me out a little. I feel a little helpless, like I should already be doing it myself. But all I need is a day or two with some guidance, and I can at least contribute a bit. I don't want to be the slow one..... I think I need to focus on sleep this week so I can have the energy it takes to get up to speed at work.
Please send some good thoughts my way, because I really need it.
My friend Ally, whom I met in college, came to visit me in Eugene. She moved back to DC in 2006, but we've managed stay close despite the distance. I miss her a lot, and I am sad she lives so far away. She currently lives in Belfast, Northern Ireland where she is working towards her PhD.
